Taking charge!

So after a depressing and discouraging phone call with my momma last night, I woke up determined to stop sitting on the sidelines, reacting to life and situations. I woke up empowered to take control of my destiny (with God in ultimate control, of course), and live the life I've always dreamed about.

I realized labels like "former fat girl", and "domestic abuse survivor", and "food addict" are holding me back. They're likes ropes wrapping around me, binding me to the past. A past that I am grateful for - after all, surviving my past has made me the strong, independent person I am at this moment. But it's a past that I want to distance myself from, nonetheless.

So my entire morning has been filled with exciting ideas and brainstorm sessions on how I'm going to get the life I want. A life acting upon my wishes and desires, instead of reacting to situations and other people.

I'm on fire, dear reader ... I am on fire ... I know what I want, and I know how I'm going to get it. Don't even THINK about getting in my way!

The next few days will be spent fleshing out my ideas, and putting my life plan together. I haven't been this excited since, well, I've never been this excited. Period.

Time to buckle up, buttercup. This ride is gonna take off!

More to come in the next week or so!!

I'm happy to report my neck pain is getting more manageable. I'm still on regular doses of regular strength tylenol, but that's progress considering I was doubling up on doses of extra strength tylenol over the weekend!

I'm still very restless, I can't believe how much I've come to rely on my workouts for relaxation and stress relief! I've been taking little walks throughout the day to get rid of the ants in my pants, and am continuing with the daily yoga DVDs as well.

I'm counting down the days until I can get a good cardio workout in though! I miss it!


"Every great dream begins with a dreamer. Always remember, you have within you the strength, the patience, and the passion to reach for the stars to change the world." Harriet Tubman


Shannon C said...

You go get it girl! Live the life you want! I'm cheering for you!!

seattlerunnergirl said...

Michelle, I can FEEL your excitement through the screen! I'm excited for you, and to hear the details of what this dreaming and planning is going to look like in your life. Glad to hear your neck is getting better, too!

Becca55 said...

That is awesome girl, you can do it and your right dont let anyone or anything stand in your way!! Im cheering for you

anne h said...

Very good.
And sparkly!

WriterMarie said...

I'm with you on this! Like you said, God has ultimate control, but we have to do our part too. Here's to reaching our goals and dreams!!! xoxoxo

Marcelle said...

Labeling ourselves does hold us back...
I have so many labels for myself as well and find I fall back to those names so often.
I grew up struggling with certain subjects at school...my dad with try and help me and I would end up crying out of frustrating of not understanding, my mom would tell my dad to leave me alone as I'm *stupid* - I carried that label with me, still do...I always tell myself I cant do anything thats got to do with learning as after all I'm stupid...think one of the reason's I've not tackled learning Germany....that's just one label and its still with me!!

Fran said...

I'm excited for you too and I can't wait to hearing more of your plans. Good for you taking things in your own hand!

I should do that more! So maybe I can learn from you!

Good to hear your neck pain is getting better.


Diane, Fit to the Finish said...

You can do it! Keep pushing right forward.

If you don't push for your dreams, then no one else will do it for you. Great message in this post!

Jen said...

Ohhhhhhhhhh Boy! What are you up to now?? :o)
I agree with SeattleRunnerGirl--I can FEEL your excitement through e screen!
I hate anticipation though...so spill the beans already! :o)

Ps. I have to also agree with you about those "titles" you (we) put on yourself (ourselves). It's great to remember your past and where you've come from....but looking ahead to the future is even better! You should go from secrets of a former fat girl to secrets of a super fit girl! :o)

Feed Me I'm Cranky said...

Damn straight, Michelle! You can do this! p.s. you rock!

Betsy said...

I love the energy in this blog! You accomplish anything...you've already done SO much it's unbelievable!

Deanna said...

Michelle my Bell, I can't wait to see what have in store for yourself...as you have accomplished more in one lifetime than some folks have in 10!!!

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